May 8
12:18
A new one. A brand new one. Though We feel like shit. Utter shit. We can’t let that get to Us. Gotta stay focused on the goal at hand. The goal is simple. Run a 105 miles within 24 hours. That’s what We gonna do. There’s nothing else. We don’t have to do nothing else. Just run, and keep running…
17:52
This that shit, getting closer and closer now. Gotta keep going, keep pushing… That mental side, that inner bitch. Gotta keep tearing apart the foundation. Gotta rebuild the madness, again and again. This is what that shit’s all about. The insanity behind it all… That’s why we need that badge. We need that shit to align with what this is and who We are. Or better, who We became over these 2 years. We’re almost doing this for about two years now. The madness. The daily struggle. And We’re in it for year now, a complete year within this suffering. Everything is broken. Everything is damaged. It’s obvious there’s even a twinge of nerve damage lingering within that right arm all the way up to the shoulder. Even parts of the pectoral.
It’s simple. It’s do it. That’s all it is. Do it. Whether you want to or not. It’s about doing. The getting there sucks so bad. Taking trains, getting there pretty late. But We got time. Go to bed between 1 and 2. Wake up at 10:30.
Simple, it’s pretty simple. All of it is simple. We just make it hard, and we meaning each and every one of us. It’s something all of us do. We make it hard. So that must mean we can make it easy. We can make it simple. It is that simple.
Think about food… We need some food…
Don’t know if McDo is such a good idea. They got a jumbo, but that shit closes at 22. Don’t know if that’s possible. There’s a KFC but it’s a stretch. So that might be possible but it will take time.
We do need shit, like water and some soda, so the jumbo is actually mandatory.
May 9
11:31
Today it’s that day. Damn madness.
May 12
13:47
Here we are… Took Us a bit. We failed. We didn’t make that 100mile. We did do that 24h. We finished that motherfucker limping. Already registered for a new event. Already on that new attempt. September 12-13. That’s when We’re gonna do this. We know We can. Just had bad luck with the knee. Everything else was perfect. The back was a little fucked though We could get past that with an occasional stretch out flat on the ground. Nutrition was good, even close to perfect. Gotta make a couple tweaks in the exact products. Add some Tucs, add some real food like croissants. Some shit like that.
13:59
We got a new opportunity. This time. This opportunity, it’s an important one. We can’t let this one slide. Gotta grab it with both hands and make the most of it.
May 13
11:59
It’s like a presence… One of the mind. Nailing our limbs down and into the mattress. We’ve let that shit get the better of Us, We’ve let it get out of control. And it’s so weird. Because even on three to four hours that shit’s never a problem, though as soon as We are in this position. Holidays or weekends, and even with shit to do, We still can’t manage. And We know it’s that idea, that notion of resting, of catching up to the lack of sleep We’ve accumulated over the last months.
Really gotta do something about this. Really gotta change that habit back around. And We gotta use this shit to Our advantage. We can. Something within… There’s a monster within. A demon. One that knows no boundaries. One that keeps going. One that goes beyond. We do wonder. Why does he slumber. Now that We’re here. Now that We’re finally at the crossroads he sent Us for, where is he now. We gotta wake him up or We’ll be stuck here forever. And We know. It’s gonna ask everything We have, even more. And that’s why We gotta go beyond. Far beyond the madness.
May 14
13:15
Gotta do something about it. First. Let’s not be vague. Gotta do something about that bitchy lazy slumbering. This shit’s never in Our advantage. We lose time. Because We’ve got shit to do. Our workouts now are short and all, but once We get back into the full program, We can’t have this happen. This shit is over with. No room for any of this any longer. We wanna go further right, We wanna get better, right… So. This is a part of Us getting better. This is a part of Us going further. It’s for Us. Not anybody else.
Just hammer away. One splinter at a time, all that’s negative, all that’s weak, all that’s unnecessary. We’re not him, We’re not them, We’re Us. We are a different kind of monster.