We should be grinding it out on the site, but We came here. You know, sometimes it’s just about laying this shit out, sometimes it’s about getting it all out the system. Don’t know what’s in the system to be honest, but then again, do you know half the time. Does anyone really know what they’re about, or what’s happening to them. We ponder it often, takes Us beyond a particular perspective. It destroys the self completely, though it also annihilates any perception of other. There’s nothing, no one, not one distraction, just an everlasting gaze at the current existence unfolding. One big pot of intertwined atoms. A construct of tiny bits linked together by energy. An energy unknown to the mind of a modern being. It is the ultimate energy.
To this point We still haven’t figured what it is, unable to determine exactly where it comes from, nor define its true nature. All We know is it exists, it’s within our veins, each and everyone of us possesses this blazing and each of us could draw from it the potential to struggle onward. That much is certain. It has been proven by a few brave souls willing to tap at the unlimited potential bubbling within this endless vat of raw natural power.
Just Blessings
It’s not something to provide inhuman strength, nor is it something that grants the ability to perform godlike feats. That’s up to the human chasing those daunting achievements. What it will do is support you when everyone else will throw doubt your way. It is the one thing that will grant you the capabilities to mentally surpass yourself. If only for a second, or minute, but even for an hour, or days. We’ve touched upon this source of endless willpower. Its potential is beyond words. In Our case it aided in walking miles, thirty two to be exact, without food or water when already dehydrated and malnutritioned, lacking decent sleep for days, and no hope or certainty when it came to rest, food, or even water. When all was bleak and maddening, this energy came to Us in the form of a voice, something inspiring whispering deep into Our ears booming through to the brain. We assume this is the case for most chasing a particular goal that goes beyond human capabilities.
This isn’t about motivation, nor is it some sort of disciplinary effect. This is nothing, it is nothing. All it is is a revelation of self. An understanding, acceptance. If you do not continue, if you give up now, you will never know the finish line and forever blame yourself, hold yourself accountable for the failure that became reality. Maybe it is about quitting. Not letting yourself down. Because, let’s be honest, each of us does that on a regular basis, except for a few souls out there mastering the mind. Actively. We’re trying Our utmost best to join that group though We’ve come to understand this process takes time, step by step. Failure by failure, until beating failure becomes breakfast, lunch, and dinner.
Certainly into Uncertainty
Are you willing? Are you truly willing to sacrifice? Because that energy, that fuel, is an advocate of sacrifice. It will only aid your cause if you are after it without hesitation, if you dive deep into it without creating excuses and avoiding the reality, the hard work. And don’t think you can cheat the source, don’t for one second think you can trick it into helping you, empowering you. There’s no shortcut, no hack, no speedrun.
It is you against you. Well, We realized it’s Us against Us. Fuck everybody else. That much became obvious. There’s no one else in the room with you. We’re talking about the attic, that space you can’t escape, that confinement containing the madness, the whispers, all those old days, and the visions of days to come. All of it in one place. And you’re alone in there with the insanity you’ve created. This goes for everyone. You’re not alone in that, but you’re damn alone in there. Or, better said, like We always say, lonely. Because when you look deep down into that endless abyss yearning for colors of happiness, you’ll find out that you’re not so alone in there. All those lies, all those unrealities, all them demons, all that darkness. Breathing, heaving. It’s growing, isn’t it? We know, We’ve been there, it’s a lot, so much that years of active contemplation and work might undo, though there’s not a single shred of evidence, not one drop of certainty.
Gazing at Darkness
It’s hard, the road down into the black hole, but once close enough, and beware this, you’ll get dragged into this place of reflection. The gravitational pull is eternal, there’s no end to the madness thrown your way, and that’s because you never did anything about it before. How do We know this? Well, We’ve been there, We’re still there, deep in the midst of all that darkness, though We can’t see anything, all has become clear unlike ever before. This here, Our thing, is the search for revelation, not the revelations, but revelation itself. Where does it come from, this power, this source, this energy. All We know is that it holds the ability to induce revelation. And that seems to be its gift. Hope you can tap into that one day. It’s freeing.
Damn. Glad We did this. Because it feels beyond anything life has to offer. Here We become something that’s dedicated, We’ve got a similar focus when it comes to the daily exercising. We go deep into this space, a landscape vast and flourishing. It gives Us the reason. And that reason is simple. To do it, because We can, and because We can We’ll grow, grow beyond anything We’ve ever been. Hope you’ll manage to do something similar.